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Day 5: Getting tricky

I’m still ‘on the wagon’ but it’s getting tricky. I do feel much better for not having smoked for 5 days now, but I have to admit the feelings of “I can just have one” are much stronger today. I’m not sure why my brain is so convinced that I just want one (when it knows full well that if I just have one then I’ll be back on 20 a day before you can say ‘Excuse me mate, have you got a light?’). And I will be in the pub later tonight – the first time I’ll be properly surrounded by smokers since I quit.

What’s annoying is that I keep forgetting why I’ve quit – and have to keep reminding myself – so that when I think I really want one – I have to tell myself not to. I’m fighting against myself, and it’s a most unusual situation to be in.

3 Responses to “Day 5: Getting tricky”

  1. JT said on February 25th, 2006 at 1:45 am:

    YEAH GOOD LCUK WITH THAT…….. IM STILL ONLY ON 6 A DAY…..

  2. Carol said on February 25th, 2006 at 3:23 pm:

    Keep up the good work!! I quit in September, and haven’t gone back…and not a day goes by that I don’t think about making an illegal U-turn from the far right lane, smashing through four lanes of oncoming traffic — JUST to buy a beloved pack of Marlboros.

    And then I remember that I’m “doing the right thing” by not smoking, and I shove another cinnamon Altoid in my mouth…and I don’t make that U-turn.

    GO YOU!!!!

  3. Matt said on February 25th, 2006 at 4:18 pm:

    Thanks Carol :)